Past, Presents, the Future

Focusing too much on the future and you lose focus on the present is exactly what happened to me, too busy sorting out a future left me with nothing in the present and left what I wanted within the past. I have always been a bit of a control freak and a dreamer, a necessity born out of a coping strategy that ultimately failed.  Much like religious keystones of trials and trepidation in the past & present, will eventually lead to a better future & tomorrow (aka the concept of heaven), I have used this principle in order to survive hardships I've had to ordeal and yes it did work for a while at least, maybe I should of headed the warning signs but that’s the beauty of the past... hindsight.  In the past I have been told by a few that I build futures up to much in my mind and end up expecting too much from people. This of course is all entirely true. More often than not the past come back to haunt us but I've never known how virulent the past can be in destroying the future, until you lose the very thing you want the most.

"If you want a vision of the future, imagine a boot stamping on a human face.. forever."

- George Orwell