Have I Lost It?

Loss, the universal constant & inevitability in life. Ben Franklin once said "Nothing is certain but death and taxes" he was wrong, he missed out losing. We are born into this world and we will carve our existence out in an unforgiving world and maybe with a bit of luck will find true happiness, but everyone will eventually die, everyone will pay tax throughout and everyone will lose someone or something that has a greater meaning to them.

Yes I have lost, as I’m sure any of you reading this will have surely lost as well. I've lost lots in my short 24 years on this rock floating in space. More than I ever though I possible could or ever would within the brief spark that we call our lives. I've lost a best friend to a tragic accident, I've lost people I've loved and obsessed over, I've lost my honour, I've lost friends over stupidity, both mine and there's & and I've lost the greatest thing that you can ever lose but I cannot bring myself to think of it, let alone share it with you for fear that the emotions that have been locked down so securely may overwhelm the little of what’s left on my sanity.

I struggle daily with the lost in my life, which isn't great for my future because my grandparents are starting to reach the age when then next time I see them may be the last, which brings me no end of sadness. I always try to see them as much as possible knowing that soon I will be dealing with more loss, which my mental health can ill afford, but this inevitability I must accept because in my life it is one of the three constants that will never change, that I can navigate my existence upon.

For all of you who have and will lose something dear to you I feel for you as it’s an emotion that no-one should have to live through, but alas we must and we must continue to fight, through this life until the final inevitability of death can take you.

Everyone will die, and everyone will lose, 

So what you going to do with moments you have before it's you? 

It doesn't mean goodbye, It's just a simple truth